glamour

I have this thing with fashion magazines. I can't resist picking up 2 or 3 every time I go to wal- mart and scouring the pages soaking up the stylish clothes that cover every page. But last night I was flipping through the pages and came to this article. Please if you have to time to read it, it will be well worth your time.
As I read the words I became sick, angry, upset, I felt helpless and scared and yet grateful. I was moved. I cried as I kept reading, I wanted to lay the magazine down and forget but I couldn't. This is something we all need to see and read about every now and then to remember to be enormously grateful for everything, everything we have. We need to remember the small things in life and not get so caught up in not having an outfit to wear or not having a lot of money and not having the job you want. Reading this article made me feel horrible for getting so caught up in my life and made my problems seem small. I cried last night about the way humanity is, and why people do the atrocities that they do, against fellow humans, who share the air, have the same blood, are made up exactly the same and are created by the same God. It opened my eyes and I became even more so grateful than I already feel that I am, and was grateful for my full stomach, for the bed I was in, for feeling safe, even for the fact that John is just going for 7 months and that if that was my biggest problem I was facing and that I, should get down on my knees and thank the Lord for what I've got and that's my only problem.
For the first time I was actually proud of what John is doing. I'm still scared and upset, but if he can help to rebuild a country and end violence, violence against innocent people who just want the luxury of feeling safe then I think that maybe I can handle this. That if women who have been through unspeakable things and still find a way to become whole again, then I can too.